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August 10 - Suffocated…I cant share my emotions…how much I actually wan to be some ones guardian angel…being part of some ones life…having someone to think bout…doing things for someone…taking care of some things of tat someone…
- Till now it still feels impossible to reach out to someone…anyone…
- It takes days to like U…weeks to fall in love wif U…mths to let U know I love U…yrs to show my love for U…
- For me…to like someone I’ll probably consider for a few days N it’ll slowly become a mus to see U…N before U know it…I’ve fallen in love wif U…then now its all bout de courtship…
- Questions…will U be interested in me? (trying every ways to please U) …can U see how much I like U? (wad more can I do…hmmm) …I should jus let U know N get an answer. (but wad if U were to reject me…not giving me de chance to show how much I would love U…N de length I’ll go to , to create a wonderful story jus bout Us)
- Will she be cute , bubbly , active , amazed me wif her own opinion…will she be there N surprise me…will she be de one reprimanding me for not loving her tat much anymore…will she be complaining tat Ive not hugged her since yesterday…will she grab me or I grab her N kiss me/her…will she jump out of no where onto my back N make me run down orchard road carrying her…will she be calling for me when her heels R broken or her shoes torn…
- She WILL be de one tat motivates me in de things I do…
- Sunday…visited HX at NUH…got hospitalized cuz he has tis giddiness which makes U vomit…might be due to his bike accident so he had to be there to be observed…
- Before tat…went to QX’s hse to return him his laptop…he did his stuff N we went to visit HX…
- Was gonna go skating at night…but I slept N didnt bother to wake up…
- Now using my old laptop…I jus realize de C: has a boost…a boost in memory space…
- I crave to have tis feeling tat I cant describe…to have a certain smth of someone N taking care of it…It seems so hard to describe it…so I wont bother to try anymore…
- Duty on Monday…so basically there’s nth to talk bout so I’ll jus post it now…
August 09 - Friday was yet another working day…went out at night to watch G I Joe…Akira Wilson Kelvin Another Kelvin…plus Sabrina N her frens whom we met at Great World…
- Nice movie…but kinda lame if U think bout it at de end of it all…
- Went to have prata at Timah…N found a worm maggot like thingy in de curry…N so we got 50% off…till now it still disgust me…creepy…
- Reached home at ard 5…N fell asleep really quickly after freshening up…woke up at 130pm N got rdy to meet de Stage phone strap seller…LOVES IT…
- Went to a secret place to place deposit for a secret thing…hehehe…
- Went to somewhere near home club to look for Chy Gf…she was in a flea market…but I went off after awhile…N went to Jurong Point to meet Muah Chee to get Chloe her Bday present…
- We then went to Chloe’s hse…
- Honestly I went there for de “HOT” babes…but sadly there wasnt really any…but frens tat I hardly see…like Carolyn de really interesting to chat wif girl…Cara…Rice…Line…all girls YES…haha…
- Now at home…Bday Party next week…everything is planned out…all I need to get now is de decorations…EXCITING…!!!
- Lastly…HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOE…AKA Stupid Girl…
August 06 - Do U realize we handle relationship differently as we grow up…we learn wad we should shouldnt do…blah blah…de way we handle relationship matures along wif ourselves…
- Our first few relationship would hurt a lot becuz of de lack of knowledge on how to de break up…de rejections…de cold shoulder N all tat…Knowing more N understanding tat there will always be complication…we now would mutually agree on a break up…but still getting our hearts broken becuz certain things were done…
- I know there’s smth I wanna say…but becuz I had it all in my mind while going to work…at work…N coming home from work…didnt jot it down N now I onli can remember tat I did had smth interesting to talk bout…
- Tats All Folks…
August 04 - It hurts me to say tat Im developing a tummy now…=(
- Life’s still gd…N before I forget…my Dad learnt to use de word fuck…incredible…I think my 2nd sis influence him somehow…LOL…
- Its nth happening…no matter how much I wish to feel de way I would feel when falling in love…but its not happening…no luck I mus say…de main real reason…Im jus plain lost…no sight of wad exactly is de real way we should go bout in falling in love…
- Hmmm…I actually think its becuz I question myself too much…plus de fact tat Ive not actually been in 1 for such a long time already…Im like a total noob N dun understand it at all…WTF…tats horrible…
- Its not bout being desperate anymore…Im jus totally clueless of wad it should be anymore…desperate to understand it rather then desperate to be wif someone…or izzit being wif someone will make me understand…WTH…Im jus making myself go mad thinking de way I M thinking…
- Tired…N now I jus let my line drift along de waters waiting to get smth…
- Present : It would be great to buy Urself 1…It would be even better if he/she goes through de trouble in finding out wad exactly U wan N buying it for U…Its nice to let people buy things for U even though U know it N even being there in person…but wad touches U is de secrecy…he/she buying smth for U without U knowing but wif tat thought…tat thought of wanting to get U smth touches U becuz its from someone ard U whom U do not hate…
- I start to communicate TRUTH , NEEDS & FEELINGS wif Dad…Past Present Future…N came to a conclusion…his tat stubborn old man wif his own beliefs N his way of doing things…its bout wad HE wants N nvr wad other needs…still its challenging but fun arguing…we dun get pissed but solemnly think…I honestly think I understand his point of view…but does he understand wad Im trying to say?
- We all have disappointment…but if de cause is due to greed , for example gambling in stocks etc , then too bad…I think U deserve it…
- I dun wan Ur money…I dun wan U to make me live de way U wan me to…I jus wan U to understand ME…but its too late…=(
July 30 - Im looking forward to Ur end in Ur relationship…Yes I actually am…its jus a thought tat sudd came across my mind…OMG…not gd…
- Ard Feb 3rd…is a day tat I should remember…its when I got my horoscope tattoo done…in 2007…not very sure bout de date…but I went through de trouble to check my old blog to find a post I blogged bout getting tis done…
- N I remeber getting tis kinda randomly…didnt pick a date…I mus say I didnt really give in any thought when getting tis done…jus came across de design in frens shop when HX N Clair both were showing interest during tat period to get a tattoo…thus I was in de shop quite often…
- Jus had enough time to come across tis design…N after searching ard for designs…decided tat de design in de shop was nicer…no regrets…N comments I get or rather people asking wads tat design…guesses were…funniest “clothes hanger”…de most often ones “magnet” “omega”…occasional “snake”…
- M I angry or feel not tat gd after they guess wrongly giving me tis kinda weird weird answers…? Im not angry actually…becuz I dun expect people to understand…in both ways…de meaning N de design…not knowing de design is alright…but if U question Y I put it N say some negative stuff…depending on my mood…I’ll probably jus tell U to shut up N keep comments like tat to Urself…
- Aug 18th…arm inked…Feb 3rd or somewhere ard tat week…back of neck inked…Dec 25th…back finish inked (first 3hrs Nov 23th - next 6hrs Dec 13th – Dec 25th finak 6hrs)…haiz…Im jus a common boy…inked or not inked…
- Thursday…mth is coming to an end…N there was some animal rescue going on in camp…found 2 new born kitten in de drain…got them out…tried to lure de mom to them…hopefully she has found de kittens N move them some place safer other then de drain…
- Tats all for now…N I really gotta thk QX for lending me his laptop while his away in Tekong…THANK YOU SO SO MUCH…!!!
July 28 - Usually I would be hating myself for who I M…de someone tat cant stick to anything…de someone tat cant seem to find her…
- I realize tat I change personality frequently…1 day I would feel tat so N so is ok…N then suddenly I would think tat its not gd…then alright…then maybe…blah blah blah…
- My point of view change so much so tat when I suddenly go back to de first view of a certain smth…I wonder Y I feel de way I did back then…tis is too confusing for anyone to understand…
- Simply…a certain smth can have many different points of view…problem is…everyone have their own N hardly 1 can have many…but me…while time passes I get all sorts of ideas bout a particular smth…
- I give myself headache trying to find myself…at which I come to a point N give up…too~ tired…
- Counting down de days left…Aug is so near…so many events…excitement…!!!
July 16 - Do U get on de taxi N think tat de driver should know where Ur destination is…
- Sometimes we do things N expect de other party to respond N act accordingly to de certain task…but wad we end up having is to be constantly asking de other party to follow up on wad they need to do…reminding them over N over…
- We jus take things for granted expecting people to get back to U jus becuz U’ve already inform them…
- Tis all happens when we R out in society…out of school…N into de working world…but still even if we were to make sure things go smoothly…we’ll have to waste lots of time checking every thing…making sure he/she is doing wad she has to do so tat certain stuff can get settled…haiz…fucking irritated by how NS is so cocked up…=_=…
- Today got my first ride from HX…he had to wait outside my camp for awhile becuz its never certain when I can really go off…N so we had dinner near Jess’s stall…de usual…
- My conclusion…I’ll stick to driving instead of riding…THANK YOU…hahaha…
July 14 - I would normally blog on both days before I blog or 1 of de day…but right now…I got nth on my mind…N whenever I do have smth I wont be infront of my laptop…so anyway…
- 2days of work N its jus de same old shit…like I said before…a whole week of shit ahead N all I can do is work like a slave…haiz…working slave…
July 12 - Weekend is so not fun tis time…work on sat…at home to rest on sunday…Monday work…no OFF…!!! Pretty hectic tis week…Im so falling ill soon…
- I dreamt of being attached AGAIN…tis time its wif a fren…Ive dreamt bout a taiwan celeb once I think…dreamt bout unknown people…dreamt bout people I know of cuz…
- This 1 is really creepy…but it started out really sweet N all but end up not sad…but creepy…becuz its a fren tat I wasnt really thinking bout…Argh…its jus so creepy…
- Ok…I’ll get over it soon…Im cool right now…no sudden spur of desperation…phew~~
- Tis sudden spur of feeling jus appear out of nowhere…de time when Im promoted from Sec 2 to Sec 3…lower sec to upper sec…tat change from wearing short pants to wearing long pants…N all of a sudden U realize Ur becoming a senior now…tat kinda feeling , I think , wont ever come by again…its really special…*memories* *memories*…
- I wonder Y its so hard for me to find someone to love nowadays…I think we all have a capacity…de capacity to love…N when U find someone N it all runs out in de end U’ll break up…but I think little surprises, little arguments, little changes & many other factors leads to tat capacity not going empty…
- I envy de future girlfriend of mine…haha…cuz my capacity to love is very very very high…N its gonna blow soon…
- My whole coming week is so shitty…becuz there will be an exercise going on for de whole week…I’ll probably work from morning till night for 5days straight…=(
- People…hear tis…we should give in to people sometimes…so U urself mus understand tat at certain times people will be in a more irritated state so dun expect them to talk to U nicely N when they dont…dun make things worst by arguing back…be a little more understanding N we can live happily together…=)
- There’s smth seriously wrong wif my dreams tis past 2 days…de weird dream bout me being attached when I was doing duty…plus de dream I had today while I was having my afternoon nap…tats even weirder…so weird tat Its really hard for me to say it out…ITS JUS SO FUCKING WEIRD…
July 10 - Its already making me happy receiving emails replying my invites…smiles smiles…N if things go smoothly till de day of de party…I promise tat there will be a surprise for everyone…*hint* *hint*…
- Harry Potter is so gonna win Transformer 2…!!!
- I wanna be honest…I realise tat while I was still maybe 19 N below I didnt understand wads so sexy bout de ass…but i now look at some ass N find certain shape really hot…=X…Hahaha…signs tat Im growing up…LOL…!!!
- Ive got not much time to be thinking bout certain stuff recently…tis is always becuz Im working…N although I do have time of my own while working but I’ll be going crazy or resting…
- But anyways…tis few days been fill wif so much laughter…both at home watching Bai Fen Bai N going crazy at work…=D
- Becuz working late Im unable to post tis…but I dun think tis is long enough to count as a 4days post…
- Ok so after a long wait at NUH de verdict is out…Ive got mild slip disc…not surprise…tats it…Im so excuse from all heavy duty work…muahahaha…
- So god damm tired man…plus working on sat as well…OH MAN…tata peeeps…oh ya…SRY Alfreda “Wife”…cant attend Ur Bday BBQ today…hope Ur having fun…=)
July 06 - I came to understand some things…how unstable I’ll find a girl to be…nvr dare to let go fearing tat she might fall…while de right thing is to let her fall N climb by herself N occasionally hold her N help her up…
- But I dun think I’ll ever learnt to judge when is de right time…
- Ok…I jus dun have de mood to go out N do my stuff…but it makes me think…I wonder if I’ll go if I can get my hands on de car keys…hiak hiak…but still…I’ll probably jus waste my time away again tis Sunday…=_=…
- Wads hurtful…its hurtful when good intentions turns out bad…Buzzing Cashier 2 on Chn 8 kicks off wif such a hurtful story of daughters wanting to fulfills Moms wish but ends up wif increasing debts…by now de shop should be doing well I hope…tempted to go down N check it out…
- A little more then half of my monthly $400 is going down de drain soon…sob sob…ARGH…!!! N its becuz theres things I wanna buy…”NOTE” its wanna buy not gotta buy…so I actually I can choose not to…but…but…I cant help it…SAVE~~~ ME~~~…
- To spent like tis means I gotta save in all little little things Im doing…so I guess for July I’ll probably onli skate once…as for food…not more then $10 on junk food for de mth…since I have monthly bus concession…I’ll onli take bus N not shop…tis is so pathetic…its gonna be a pathetic mth…=(
- Chatting wif my first love…she promised to come for my Bday…haha…de conversation started of wif NS…then studies…N continue bout studies…N conclusion…my view of life is denying me of any target…N tat’ll probably de downfall of my life…AHhhhh~~~
July 04 - Working is jus like being a zombie…for me I wake up 1 1/2 hr before de reporting time…then clean up take bus go to work…get de keys drive de vehicle…blah blah…repeating it all de time…
- I can almost do all tis wif my eyes close…of cuz driving is an exception…SAFETY OK…!!!
- Haven chat wif dear Julie for awhile…N so nice of her to have dreamt of me…hahaha…someone dreamt of me…!!! woohooo…ok…getting a little overly excited…
- Ive been playing wif my PSP a lot lately…Im so bored…!!! But Im soooo tired…!!!
- I plan to do things during my ME time on sat…planned to go some places to get some things check some stuff…but I ended up staying at home rotting…
- Ok…maybe sunday…I mus go out…!!!
July 02 - Would U ever ask before telling…smth like…”close de door leh”…N when de door is already closed…I’ll look at U N say…”can U ask if de door is close first or not , before asking me to close it?”
- Ok maybe Im jus sensitive or smth like tat…so I shall not defend myself…becuz maybe its jus me being overly irritated by tis easily…
- Invites sent out…N totally no replies…=_=…I dun even know if anyone actually received it…
- Alright…anyway there’s still time…I’ll spread de news using other ways as well…
- Nth much to add…
June 30 - Can I drive without my specs? answer is…YES…
- N I did drive without my specs on sunday…onli realising it when Ive reached…Zzzz…kinda uncomfortable not having my specs for de day…still I survived…
- Kinda brain dead for de time being…
- No name…I will really call U if I knew who U were…eerie…ok its impossible to judge my own blog…is eerie a gd thing?
- Ive jus gotten a hair cut…Ive jus receive a letter regarding donating of organ after death…Ive jus realize tmr is July…Ive been a gd boy…
- Erm…Im open to suggestions…tell me wad Ur interested to know…wad U wanna see more in tis blog…things like my views on certain things…give me a subject N I’ll see wad I can come up wif…=)
June 28 - Watched Transformer on Friday wif QX HX HX’s Sis Sis’s BF…I now know Y I love transformers back when I was a kid…N didnt know Y I didnt like it when it was on Kids Channel…De movie was jus de more grown up version which made me remember de liking I had…
- Sat out wif HS…de girl nvr fails to say things tat irritate me in a funny way…watched Girls Of Girlfriend Past…went Ice skating…de movie made my eyes watery…sweet story…
- Had fun skating wif HS…tried to prevent de inevitable…Ice Kachang…HS got de spray ice treament AKA ice kachang…it was fun going out wif her again…
- Ate at de usual Da Jie’s place…N went over to Sabrina’s chalet at ECP…Now Im home trying to put everything together so tat I can go to bed becuz DUTY on sunday…today…!!!
- Night night…=)
June 26 - People…June holidays coming to an end…N YES it doesnt concerns me…hahaha…many frens have exams ard de corner now…so no 1 will be free to go skating…dammit…
- OMG…it’ll soon be July…yipee…another mth is gonna pass by…we R all happy…
- People may have mistaken Y my tattoos R at certain parts…its actually not meant for people to see…but becuz of where it is people ask certain questions…it jus feels tat de tattoo is nice at tat spot not becuz its obvious to people…
- I dunno Y its necessary for me to explain…but still I try to find de right word to explain it…many will still have their own point of view regarding tis N I wont force them to understand…jus keep de thoughts to urself…N dun judge…
- Im getting fatter…or should I say jus gaining weight…becuz many of U will know tat yrs ago Im tat skinny tall guy U all know…so jus imagine me wif much more meat…LOL…gotta start exercising N build muscles…
- We all wan simplicity…but before U carry on dreaming for it…think bout tis…De process of simplification is complicating…N nth will ever be simple becuz there’s a consequence in everything…N consequences or complications…
- Tats abit random…N kinda heavy for normal people to swallow…N I jus happen to come up wif tis idea while watching a show N going to bed…
- Weekend already here…N its FULLY packed…O-M-G…
- Win liao loh…nowadays people do things N nvr invite others to join…N Im doing my best to bring together all de skaters…while others R going inline without inviting me…SAD…really Im sad…
- But lets all jus ignore tis sad stuff N drown ourselves in happiness…!!!
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